My name is Nathan Tamayo, I am 25 years old and I have done nothing in my life that I am proud of.
Those of you who have enough interest to read this are wondering why I am grieving. I broke up with a girl who I found amazing due to the difficulty of the circumstances. But it pains me much because we broke up not because we didn't work together, but because the timing was all wrong. It's best to be apart, a decision she made. It's a strange thing for a person so much younger than you to be more mature than you, but I admire and actually look for that in a woman. Because I'm childish and naive for an adult. (Though I have to admit that I don't want to change that.)
Many people did not like the relationship for various reasons, all justified and valid. I stood against those who protested and argued and I thanked those that supported, though there were relatively few. The fact of the matter is now you all have the right to say, "I told you so." Which is fine, I knew what I was getting into.
But let me say this: It was worth it.
I drove over two thousand miles [I counted. (Enough to drive to Seattle and back)], kept secrets, and cried for hours, but it was worth it. Every inch, every word unspoken, every tear.
Love is worth it.
Every breath, every moment.
My friend Jennie once told me, "Love is time." I know now why she believes that.
We never got passed holding hands and I wouldn't have asked for anything more. It was brief but it was powerful, and she is stronger for it, I'm sure. It was a great experience for both of us and we now have some good memories, though right now they may be painful for me to look back on. We've grown from the experience and I'm glad for that.
My name is Nathan Tamayo, I'm 25 years old and I have done nothing I am proud of, until now. I helped someone I care about discover strength, maturity, and love.
"If you love someone, set them free. If they come back they're yours; if they don't, they never were."
I believe that love is sacrifice.
If love is sacrifice then there is no greater sacrifice than love itself for the good of the other person.
I love you, I always will.
3 comments:
it's better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all. You know how I felt about it. And hey, cheer up! I mathematically proved you are a bonafide Boss.
Wow, at least in words, you are already 5 billion steps ahead of me when it comes to breakups than I ever was. So, don't underestimate your own maturity.
you know how i felt but also know that I never want you to get hurt. I heard you come home last nite but b.c I knew you were hurting over something and when that happens I hurt too. Remember that w. the pain comes growth and we're here for you if you need help getting thru it.
"In the time of war, we would never have left a man behind." - Zoe Washburn
This will always be true.
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