Perhaps.

Perhaps it's my lot in life to help others. To be the guy who makes you feel better, pick you up when you're down, dispel your fears.

But in order to do so, I give away a part of my joy, so that another could have it. To share my love and give it away. To sacrifice my joy for another's.

Phillip once said that perhaps my role was to lead, to bring people together and help things along, but that it was a double edged sword. That since I knew all, saw all, I couldn't be happy. That it as lonely at the top.

It's lonely at the top.

So very lonely.